Personal Reflections

Accursed Mental Scripts

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I woke early, my brain rattling. My mind blaring away these negative scripts, negation of myself, my vision. All kinds of internal challenges to my dreams. Why am I so negative with myself, but positive with others? I notice this with others, too. This really puzzles me. I deeply value and encourage the talents of […]

Personal Reflections

Focused on the stats

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Recently, my son started exploring vlogging and video creation. Inspired by the fame acquired by those YouTubers he admires, he focuses on emulating their styles. And on his stats. He finds it frustrating that his follower growth is slow. The expectation, I suppose, was to post a few videos and have followers blaze in. I […]

Personal Reflections

Retreating from fear

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A puzzling realization: this desire to retreat from fear. Well, at one level it makes sense: fears represent danger, which one should avoid. But there are things we fear whose only remedy is knowledge. So, knowledge is power, but to gain it we often must face our fears. Ah, yes, winning the battle against reflex! […]

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Mediation on blackbelts, parenting, adoration and balance

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As a parent, I’ve witnessed many moments of adoration by other parents. Last night, at my dojang’s blackbelt awards ceremony (my wife and son both received their belts) I was struck again by parental devotion. Watching my fellow parents, with grandparents, beam with pride at their child’s accomplishment was both delightful, and a little sad. […]

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Thoughts on the CFPB

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We in the real estate business have been hearing TONS about the Consumer Finance Protection Bureau (CFPB) lately. The biggest piece for us has been the changes in the required disclosure documents that will be launching “soon”. Mainly, the required documentation has been cleaned up/made less confusing (and I think they’ve done a reasonably good […]

Personal Reflections

A weekend at Camano State Park

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I really enjoyed camping at Camano Island State Park last weekend. We’ve been there before, but only for the day. It’s been years since I’ve done any camping, and decades since I’ve car-camped. Even more important than my enjoyment, though; my son enjoyed his first camping experience. Camano park apparently was a private camp at […]

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Fitness Journeys

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One thing that strikes me, on this fitness journey, is how a sedentary my life had become. My fitbit’s basic plan is to accomplish 10k steps per day. Well, today, I just got that. At 11:40 at night. That entailed pacing around me house for a few minutes. And I did an hour of taekwondo […]

Digital Life

Twitter and Rage

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Every so often I read something on twitter which infuriates me, filling me with horror and revulsion.  I long for the power to remove such wretched souls, deleting the parasitic blight. However, I know that is not my path. Reveling in rage only fills me with misery. I seek the right response, though,  one which […]