My sadness filled days,
Floating gently away now
I’m blessed with good friends
Month: July 2014
Risking Connection
Daring to connect
To talk, touch, love.
Riding the embrace
Of human connection.
Perhaps feel humiliation’s
Terrible burn, of hearts
Betrayed, of confidences
Flung open into the wide
Abyss of public view.
Cruelty amassed.
Fearlessly facing such,
Diving headfirst into dark
Mist must seem mad
Yet, it’s the realm of vulnerability
Where real love becomes
Manifest.
Into Nothingness
Dreams burn into dust
Smoke and destruction raging
Into the nothing
Violence
Violence calling loud
Seemingly an easy path
Destruction’s curse.
Thoughts on Thinking
Words, half phrases
Incomplete sentences
Burped out notions
Quick then gone
This random way
My mind works
Or at least operates
Flowing ideas
Collide upon themselves
In a helter-skelter
Maddening prattle
Summer Sun
Skin cooked stealthily.
Yet sometimes the joy of sunlight
Warms hearts joyously.
Dreaming Big – Living Beyond The Doable
I’ve been reading Gary Keller’s “One Thing”, which defines three types of goals: doable, stretch & possible. “Doable”, of course, is the low hanging fruit, the no/low risk path. “Stretch” pushes you, but you’re still within the view of “limits”; some more risk and more effort than “doable”. Then we have “possible”. Well, I don’t like Keller’s term, but we’ll go with it. Because “possible” really pushes our mind past what we view as possible. It’s not about what we think as possible, but pushing past our viewed limits and discovering the truly possible. I like “beyond possible”, but I think that would push people away from trying, as much as “impossible” would.
Ah, the “impossible!” I don’t believe in impossibilities. Rather, possibilities limited by either vision or a lack of technological progress. In Michio Kaku’s “Physics of the Impossible”, he defines three types of impossibilities: class 1, 2 & 3. Class 1 are technologically impossible, but don’t violate physical laws. Conceiving of a world with them isn’t that hard. Class 2 exist at the very edge of our understanding. And Class 3 requires a different understanding of physical laws. All three have been pushed past over the course of history. So, with that, I believe that most, if not all statements of “impossible” really are statements of limited vision.
So, with that, you’d think I’ve been living a life pushing past the impossible, setting all my goals in the “possible” realm. No. I’ve struggled pushing into “possible”. Heck, “stretch” is emotionally challenging. Why? Fear, the fear of hitting my limits, I guess. The fear of disappointing those I care about? I’m not sure. The roots of this are years of limiting messages fed into me, myriad sources, manifest voices; probably all well meaning. Now, though I see it’s time to give up on the psychoanalysis and move. Work on believing in myself. It’s the message I’m trying to pass along to those around me. Because I very deeply believe that this is the root of all innovation. And letting yourself be limited is the root of much human suffering.
I’ve limited myself so very much by focusing on “doable” dreams. That’s the source of my internal dissatisfaction. I’ve limited myself, and I feel the edges of that box. I hate it. Deeply. Fighting my way past has been infernally challenging. Probably, the lack of awareness of what in shooting for, what I feel called for has been limiting. I hope by having it better defined, I may push past, finally. The battle continues.
The pursuit of balance
I seek balance, balance between career and family, spiritual and earthly. Balance, perhaps the zen of yin and yang.
Balance, though, is not a steady state, rather continuous action. Balancing, redistributing; because you can’t have it all, only what you prioritize
Thus, knowing what’s important is critical. Having goals, big overarching ones to guide you, to allow you focus.
With that, one of my traps: forgetting that I can shift, adjust to the changing reality. And that’s the real goal, to grow, learn and adjust. Its OK for the goals to move. Actually, its critical. If we’re growing, we’re learning. That new knowledge will open up possibilities we never could consider before. The glorious future unimaginable.
Evening Falls
Drifting upon
Lingering dreams.
Plans of youth
Embraced completely
Never have escaping
A firm, steady
Committed grasp.
Sleep
Eyelids drop downward.
Gravity’s mammoth power
Wins, against focus.