Evening wanderings
Dusk settling upon me
Springtime’s blossoms call
Blog
Today’s challenge
A challenging today
Turning off the modern mind
Breathing in fresh air
Patience in Anger
Patience in anger,
This discipline of the mind
Saves one regret’s pain
Thoughts on Time
The briefness of life
Should give us pause about time
As it fades away
Dune’s Litany Against Fear
A blogging friend posted this a little while ago (Say hello to Cafe Book Bean). I’ve loved the Dune books and have always found this to be a fantastic mediation. I’m often prone to anxiety and fear-based paralysis.
“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.” – Frank Herbert (Dune)
Now awake
I now stare within
Frightened by my ignorance
Suddenly birdsong
Today’s random thoughts
Lately I’ve been realizing something about myself: I don’t have these grand aspirations towards power in regards to my career. Confrontation is gloriously unpleasant. I love working in an admin role. That’s what I’ve defaulted each time I’ve been laid off. I can’t imagine doing anything else. I have tried a few things, but they generally come to naught as I don’t have the massive drive such needs.
It’s delightful finally say “I’m cool with being an admin”. I’m good at this. I add value to the teams I work with. I’m great at the administrative work needed on any project.
I have no grand drive for acclamation and power. I’m quite comfortable being in the background. I like for my team to respect me and value my work.
Good Night
Sunlight exhausted
Sky bound colors delightful
Quietude calms me
A Good Day
Another day now
Laden with expectations
Misty rains linger
Beauty of Math
Knowledge’s power
Dimensional awareness
Mathematical dreams