Today’s random thoughts

Lately I’ve been realizing something about myself: I don’t have these grand aspirations towards power in regards to my career. Confrontation is gloriously unpleasant. I love working in an admin role. That’s what I’ve defaulted each time I’ve been laid off. I can’t imagine doing anything else. I have tried a few things, but they generally come to naught as I don’t have the massive drive such needs.

It’s delightful finally say “I’m cool with being an admin”. I’m good at this. I add value to the teams I work with. I’m great at the administrative work needed on any project.

I have no grand drive for acclamation and power. I’m quite comfortable being in the background. I like for my team to respect me and value my work.

A Sunday in April

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Walking through sunlight
Warmth flowing across my skin
Happy spring is here

Facing my storm

A storm faces me
Destruction; my own making
Irrational fears 

A Tanka About Germs

Coal-fired lungs wheeze
Annoyance for all in my house
This crafter of phlem
As springtime rolls past windows
Buoyant blossums show

I Am Caine

I am Caine
Acursed by God
And yet protected
Strangely blended
Mix of rage with
Hope. Enthusiasm
Tainted by jealousy
Perhaps in this, long
Life denied my
Brother, I may find
Redemption

Amidst the Clouds

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Sunlight flowing through
Drifting amidst white cloud fluff
Gently warming me