The Tech Savvy Admin
Always seeking growth
And to manage all my fears
Become what I want
It’s frightening, at times, to always seek growth. It requires constant reminders to watch for fear, the temptation to be comfortable. As a writer and artist, I see how critical it is to push boundaries. Mine as well as others. Perhaps mine are the most important boundaries to smash through. Destroying that which holds me back, which robs me of joy.
I will resist fear
For I long to seek out joy
And find potential
I’ve let fear run my life far too long. Fear of failure, of rejection. This paralyzes, destroying opportunity. This I resist.
The day’s heat lingers
Sunlight blocked by the mountains
Summer’s kind mercies
It was a warm one today. Especially by Seattle standards. Got some walking in, a little shopping, farmers market time, chatting friends…all things that build connection and community.
Looking through the dark
Bugs orbiting a street light
Buzzing electrons
Now that it is night
With clouds vanquished far away
Summertime feels here
This summer morning
Seattle’s cool mistyness
Singing to my heart
Something about Seattle’s misty mornings speak to my soul.
Loving our neighbors?
From the seeds of our distrust
Fear gains its power
Living with purpose
With effectiveness and joy
A life worth living
The night moving now
It slides up, embracing me
A piano plays
Exploring passion
Seeking to understand me
And what feeds my soul
One of my mentors challenged me: does my current work fill me with joy, is it what I imagine doing for years to come. I’ve never asked that of myself before. I’ve drifted from job to job. I’ve never had direction or mission in this part of my life.
I will fix that. It is time.
Writing is that joy giving thing. Now what? I’m unsure.
It’s exhilarating and terrifying.