Thoughts While Crafting A Memorial

I’ve spent the past few hours creating a presentation for a friend’s memorial service. A full range of emotions accompanied.

Professionalism is one of my core values. Approaching even the most difficult things with calm competency is something I strive for.

The pictures, though…his kids…so young. Reminding of my birth-mother’s death when I was 15. Haunting me.

For many of the services I’ve worked, my composure held well. I know, though, this one will be hard. Even though sad weeping and wailing is not what he wanted. I get that. But, you know, my humanity….

I Am Caine

I am Caine
Acursed by God
And yet protected
Strangely blended
Mix of rage with
Hope. Enthusiasm
Tainted by jealousy
Perhaps in this, long
Life denied my
Brother, I may find
Redemption

What do I believe

Faith’s varied calling
Change floats in upon the wind
Unsure of one’s heart