Video: I didn’t have friends most of my life – being ‘unsocial’ and finding belonging

brown wooden cottage at the field during day

As an introvert, I find this video wonderful. She does a great job summarizing my thoughts and feelings, especially my childhood and young-adult-hood. I, too, took a long-time to discover my people, and the way I relate to the world.

I, too, grew up in a military family. I, too, found it challenging to make connections. Eventually, I figured out that I only needed a few, close friends. That I really don’t want my life to be frenetic, a blizzard of activity with tons of friends. It took years, YEARS to discover that, then come to terms with it. But I have, and I’m glad.

Haiku, July 9, 2020

dawn hidden by clouds

songbirds boldly chattering

gentle summer’s breeze

A morning after a restless night. Coffee far too late, perhaps. My ears attuned to the night, hearing so very much, sleep came with difficulty to late to be useful. Once I woke, the morning calmness and quietude spoke to me. 

I Delight In White Noise 

White noise’s beauty 

Hiding the fearful silence 

This mountain of sand 

Sometimes I find it hard to sleep in deep silence. Perhaps it’s the urbanite within me. I find comfort in sound. But would I find peace within the raucousness of the jungle? 

A first thought this early morn 

A gentle breeze blows 

Branches scrape against my house 

This brusque goose-like cry

Startles me abruptly 

A first thought this early morn 

A gentle breeze blows 

Branches scrape against my house 

This brusque goose-like cry

Startles me abruptly 

Zen Mediation

As the mind quiets

The sound of nothing roaring

Emptiness fills me